17 November 2013

how are you?

no
don't tell me that you're doing good
or that you are fine
you and i both know that you are so far from both of those things

so tell me
when was the last time you thought about death?
when was the last time you cried and what finally made the tears fall after all that time?
what is your story of loss?
what words break you?
what words put you back together?

when was the first time you understood the depth of the word "good bye"?
when was the first tie the only thing you could do was lay on the floor and cry because nothing else in the world made sense?
when was the last time you really and truly laughed?
can you remember that far back?
what was on your mind when you got those scars?

what lies have you believed lately?
when was the first time you understood the meaning of love?
who made you turn out the way you have become?
have you ever tried to put yourself back together again?
have anyone tried to but you didn't let them?

so tell me
do you love yourself?
how much of your skin can you find constellations in?
have you ever tried to understand your heart?
have you ever made yourself believe the lie that you aren't worth it?
why?

how is the weather in your heart?
is it a hurricane or a tsunami?
is there a fog surrounding your soul?
have you ever loved another more than you loved to breathe?
when was the last time you really and truly believed that your life was worth living?

so tell me
what made you hold on to life?
what made you let go of your feelings?
ultimately, was it someone or was it you who wrecked yourself?
when was the last time you saw the light in the dark tunnel?

so tell me
how are you, really?

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